Lazy

I need to get off my ass and start doing shit. Got so lazy.. I think it's been a trend in my life. I only put enough effort into something to become good or decent at it then I just give up. The things I am great at are just natural talents, like running fast, great hearing, etc. The things I am good at I worked at like swimming or piano but I never wanted to take that extra step to become really good. Maybe that's why Olympians get to the Olympics, they never give up. Well duh.. that was a pretty obvious answer, but what I'm trying to say is that certain people have that willpower and mentality to keep going. I guess that's what you need if you want to succeed. Hopefully I will find it somewhere in me to try to get some of that. Small steps?

Just Updating

I am slowly deteriorating cause of Ambien, or so I think I am. Not mentally but doing all the stupid things has sort of affected some of the things in my life. I wake up regretting a lot of things I do, which I can't really explain. I went ahead and did some research.. and what I found out was that it's nothing out of the ordinary. A lot of people do crazy stuff, and a lot of the times none of them have any recollection of doing it. There are a bunch of YouTube videos of people doing crazy things as well. All I know is that it's affected a few things for me, but what I regret most is that I'm sure it's changed the way how some of the people I know look at me. It's sad but I really can't help it, since most of the time it's the Ambien and not me. Why is sleep so hard to come by?

Good Music

What is good music? Is it something that has great meaning behind it's lyrics? Is it.. an auditory masterpiece? Or is it something instrumentally that is unparalleled? I don't really know.

For example, I played piano for.... 8 years? Some of the last pieces by Bach, Chopin I ever played was a culmination of all the years of practice and I put in. Even after 8 years it still took me more than half a year to master these pieces. By master I mean learn it well enough to play from memory to get a good score at my exam. That's 7 to 8 months of breaking the 5-6 pages of music down into sections, learning each section, then playing that entire song thousands of times. And this was only for one piece (song). So if you ask me, I would probably say everything I played is considered good music. I guess because I know how difficult it was to learn, to play. So how talented would you have to be to write something like that?

Musically.. I am not that talented. Even with all my years of piano my sight reading (seeing a piece of music and play it right away) is very mediocre. I am not able to hear something and replicate that sound on the piano either. That said, this is merely what my own opinion of what I think good music is.

And I think Music is whatever is wants to be. And you should just have an open mind about it. If you hear something you like, then that itself is good enough for you. If melodically it appeals to you, then what can you say? However I believe today with all the "electronic" and whatnot people forget there's other music. There's opera, there's entire orchestras, there's.... the blue man group. Don't get me wrong I enjoy some of that electronic music too, but I just hate when people go and say that "this shiets the best ever!!!!!!!!!!!"

Think about it, for hundreds of years people have been singing, violin'n, piano'n, guitar'n, so the culmination of all that music greatly outweighs what's been made electronically recently. There's tons of music out there, better music than what you think is the best thing you ever heard. I bet if you were to travel to a monastery and listen to a bunch of nuns sing in some isolated town in France it would be an experience you weren't able to describe.

Music is whatever is wants to be.

Bitches don't know me like dat

Today, I was playing with my dog, Kaede. I realized that when I talk to Kaede, I talk to her like a little baby. Alright, that's putting it lightly... I talk like a little bitch to Kaede.

"d'Awww, gucci gucci, hey dere baby gurrrr!" - elchristobale

"nigga, stop frontin' like a bitch" - kaede

Then it hit me, I've also talked to my prior significant others like that as well.

"d'Awww, gucci gucci, hey dere baby gurrrr!" - elchristobale

"bark bark bark" - Charlize Theron

What does this all mean? Well, after this epiphany of mine, I have reached the conclusion that I treat girls like dogs.

p.s. happy new years and shet

Cynics/Haters/Assholes No Difference

I've come to realize that there's always people out there that can complain about ANYTHING. I saw this post earlier about some student at Columbia, talking about how a guy came in dropped a bunch of envelopes and left. Inside the envelope was a 50 dollar bill and a simple message to enjoy the gift and to enjoy the simple things in life with your friends and family.

http://i.imgur.com/hImxj.jpg

Then I read a few funny comments, but then there's a shitload of lowlifes just bitching how this guy could've helped other people with that money and the last thing you need is to help those rich Columbia students. Wow, seriously? Fuck man why the hell are you complaining about a guy who took his own money to give out to other people. Some people just love to see the glass as half empty, low life sucking maggots these people. Like seriously I still can't believe people who do this. I bet if they read about some bum who got his shit together and finally got off the streets and comments on how he'll be back on the street in no time. Or how he'll just  become a serial killer or something. Why can't you just be happy? Is your miserable little life so bad that you have to send your negative mojo out into the world any chance you get?

People like this piss me off, and to be honest the world is better off filled with wealthy guys who only gave money out to other wealthy people than judgmental bitches. In saying this, I am a pretty judgmental guy and I need to stop hating on people. For instance everytime I'm on facebook scrolling down my news feed this is what's normally going through my head "spoiled, ugly, annoying, that food looks good,  man I hate judgmental religious people, married already?, damn she's hot, hahaha that's funny". I just needa stop hating, so what if some kids got married too young? I should be like GOOD FOR THEM, gives them plenty of time to get divorced...... haha I'm working on it.

Anyways it's late, hopefully I'll write another post before Christmas. I love Christmas.

-boomb00m

The Dream

Hi All,

Here is a dream of mine, when I am king of some balla ass country. King Vu will be chilling in his castle of course, but here is his dream.

Lord Vu as they will come to call me will be sitting on a couch, with a lit fireplace as his wench/wife plays this on the piano: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kllZlF6mB2s

This along with a cup of hot cocoa is what this dream consists of. Just sitting there with the warm fire sipping on my cocoa while listening to this beautiful song, what a life. Variation of Canon, hot cocoa, wench. Call me a dreamer.

Goodnight All,
Lord Vu