Reminders

It's hard to forget when the little reminders are everywhere. I've been trying to move on, yet I am reminded daily of the one that I lost. Everywhere I turn, everywhere I look. I am trying but it's unavoidable and I just have to take it and keep going no matter how I feel. That's what sucks.

Inanimate Objects

It's funny how some things you own have so much meaning behind them. A pair of shoes for instance. I was looking at my Kobe basketball shoes. If anyone saw them they'd just see a fancy pair of shoes - they might comment how cool or ugly they are. To me I think wow I'm about to start my second season of basketball with them. When I first got them.. This and that was happening in my life. I was so happy and there was so much joy at that point. Everything you own can hold some sort of sentimental value. To others it's just shoes, to me they were a bridge between me and the person I was a few months ago.

Equal Reaction

Things I've learned the past few months:
- It takes the same amount of courage to push yourself to do something as to stop yourself from doing something. Actually now as I write this it's harder to stop yourself from doing something then it is to do something.
- I still don't know when to use 'then' and when to use 'than' - This I still need to learn
- 2009 to 2015 is 6 years. In that time I became content with it just being me.
- Life goes on whether you want it to or not. Embrace the present, don't dwell on the past or it will drag you down. Always look towards the future.
- I hate Panda Express
- Sadness is poison. If you let it linger it will consume every part of your life. I hurt. I cry. I move on.

Reach

Don't reach too far. Know your limits and don't overstep your boundaries. I at times have reached too far. I mean results were bad but aren't you supposed to reach as far as you can? Or is there a limitation you should have realized along the way and stopped yourself. I guess I was always one to push the limits and see how far I could go. I prefer not living a safe life but one filled with umph.

Music

Been kind of bummed out and any chance I get I've just been listening to music. Mainly on Pandora, music is the language of life. It conveys every emotion, and can intensify or dilute what you are feeling. If you are happy and you listen to an upbeat song it makes you even happier. If you are sad and you listen to a slow song than maybe you wouldn't be dancing anytime soon. However mix those up and you can go from happy to contemplative or sad to happy.

Music is so powerful. Thank you music.

Work Life

I've come to realize something about work. Personally for me I work as a means to an end. I work so I can do things aka make money so I can spend it. I don't love.. Nor do I hate it. But if I had the choice I would rather not do it. I am slightly motivated and I do okay.

Now I know people who work a lot. I don't think they have the same mentality as myself. They are extremely motivated and work a ton. Long hours and going the extra mile are the norm.

That would never be me. I clock in and clock out. I have no desire to work more than I have to. But that brings up a question.. Do you work to live life? Or do you live to work?

And so it is hard for me to wrap my head around the workaholic mentality. Like why.. Are you working so much? Life is supposed to be enjoyed. It's supposed to be experienced through other windows besides the one in your office. What is the point of putting all those long hours if you can't even enjoy the fruits of your labor.

I believe working a lot is a little selfish. Even if it's to provide your family a better life, a better life would be spending time with you. You have no time for your friends or family and in that aspect I believe that it is selfish. You think about yourself above all others which isn't necessarily bad but there are times where you should think of others before yourself. I can say that even for me I can be selfish in that aspect. And in my time off I should spend it with those who care about me, because they make time for me and I should return the favor.

Maybe they enjoy what they do. But not for me. I enjoy living my life outside of work. I refuse to make work my life.

Fast n Furious

I took my car to the racetrack yesterday and I don't think I can say I've had such an exciting experience before. Driving to the edge of the limits of my car, trying to push it as hard as possible, and just doing everything in your power not to lose control.

Wow.